bored na naman ako...(kaya LSS uli on a Monday morning)

Push the Button (Sugababes)

I'm busy throwing hints that he keeps missing
Don't have to think about it
Wanna kiss and
Everything around it but he's too distant
I wanna feel his body
I can't resist it
I know my hidden looks can be deceiving
But how obvious should a girl be?
I was taken by the early conversation piece
And I really like the way that he respect me

I been waiting patiently for him to come and get it
I wonder if he knows that he can say it and I'm with it
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Catch this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

I'm busy showing him what he's been missing
I'm kind of showing off for his full attention
My sexy ass has got him in the new dimension
I'm ready to do something to relieve this mission

After waiting patiently for him to come and get it
He came over and asked me if I wanted to get with him
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go

You're gonna miss the freak that I control
If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go

You're gonna miss the freak that I control
I've been dropping so many hints
You're still not getting it

Now that you've heard everything I have to say
Where we gonna go from here?
After waiting patiently for him to come and get it

He came over and asked me if I wanted to get with him
I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning
Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos

If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go

You're gonna miss the freak that I control
If you're ready for me boy
You'd better push the button and let me know

Before I get the wrong idea and go
You're gonna miss the freak that I control
(I control)

If you're ready for me boy
(For me boy)

You'd better push the button and let me know
Before I get the wrong idea and go(Oh, oh)
You're gonna miss the freak that I control

Get Here (sorry, LSS ko)

You can reach me by railway, you can reach me by trailway

You can reach me on an airplane, you can reach me with your mind

You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab man

I don't care how you get here, just - get here if you can

You can reach me by sail boat, climb a tree and swing rope to rope

Take a sled and slide down the slope, into these arms of mine

You can jump on a speedy colt, cross the border in a blaze of hope

I don't care how you get here, just - get here if you can

There are hills and mountains between us

Always something to get over

If I had my way, surely you would be closer

I need you closer

You can windsurf into my life, take me up on a carpet ride

You can make it in a big balloon, but you better make it soon

You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab man

I don't care how you get here, just - get here if you can

I don't care how you get here, just -- get here if - you can

V-day musings

I woke up to a friend's text greeting on Valentine's Day. I answered in the most cynical tone I can muster:

'Valentine's Day is crass commercialism at its finest, when crafty businessmen take advantage of sentimentalist fools. A day when hearts become senselessly mad and stubborn. This day cannot be happy. It can only be brief, profitable, expensive, painful. Happy Valentine's is nothing but an oxymoron.'

Kill joy daw ako and lagot ako if kinilig ako that day. Sagot ko, di ako kinikilig.

Two hours later, I choked on my own text-words. Ganun pala effect ng beautiful (according to K.Nattaporn, 16 daw) pink flowers na nakapatong sa desk ko pagdating ko sa office. hahaha. My first time to get flowers sa Vday and a whole pink bouquet too! Nakakatamad na tuloy mag work after that :P



So now I take it all back. Valentine's Day is not crass commercialism at all. It is merely the capitalist way of expressing an endearing sentiment. :P


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I was watching Ever After (that Cinderella-inspired Drew Barrymore movie). As usual, nakilig na naman ako sa movie. I just noticed though that the lead girl character didn't give the guy a hard time in the end. I mean, the guy denied her in front of a roomful of courtiers, degraded her status as a servant and just generally publicly humiliated her. And when the guy realized his own stupidity in rejecting the girl, he goes after her, didn't even have to suffer through a swordfight because of course, the girl managed to escape on her own. After a few choice, sweetly worded phrases, he was in the girl's arms already! Hello? Penance anyone? hehehe.
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I didn't have work today so I bonded with Star movies again. They were showing one of my favorite movies 'Sense and Sensibility' based on Jane Austen's book. It has a more subtle romantic theme but I have always loved the endings. It's like all these pent up emotions, desires and love that are repressed during the course of the movie is let out and their love always wins through and they all live happily in the end. Sigh.

I especially liked the part when Hugh Grant gazed at the girl longingly and feelingly utters, "My heart is -- and will always be yours." This never fails to elicit my own sigh of kilig.

Oh my gawd. ataya. ka-mushy na nako oi. hehehe.

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valentine's day

I can't resist. I got this from Chewy's blog:

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." -Neil Gaiman

This week was my bday week! I celebrated my birthday eve on stage (!!! still can't believe they managed to do that to me), bade farewell to a friend bound for South Africa, bonded with new friends, conducted a stressful user training and dealt with a lot of IMS and tension-filled CRs at work. Whew. I am still surviving (but barely), which is kind of an achievement in itself considering that I have been sleeping between 3 to 5 in the morning already and waking up at 7 am everyday this week!

Monday

For nearly five hours, I had to make a practice run of my training to some management people. They apparently did not trust me enough yet to conduct a fluid, and comprehensive training for users. So I spent most of my voice and energy discussing with them stuff that I do everyday already at work. I mean, if my boss trusted me enough to do this training, they should too right?

At night, we went to CM2 in what I dubbed as the 'Night of Paglalandi ng mga Boys'. (I will not name names because Kuya Mervs, Jco and Paui might kill me...oopss.. hahaha). We went out just us Filipinos plus two Russian girls and Vicky. Our Russian friends were very um, energetic when dancing. Which of course attracted quite unsavory guys to them. Good thing there was kuya to the rescue ;) . I had to go back to the apartment though because it turned out I forgot to bring my passport and the GQ-ish, gorgeous manager of the bar wouldn't let us in because the ID really is a prerequisite to get in. Sus, kung di lng sya gwapo, nasungitan ko na sya. So we went back, rushed to get our IDs and back to the bar.

At near midnight, Reysiel and the others surprised me with a cake and birthday song from the band. And I had my first dance on stage. Let's just say it's not something I will be doing again in any kind of future. hehehe. Then we had tequila shots (which probably worsened my already bad hyperacidity problem). It was one of the best night outs we've had (and this is saying a lot, considering we've had several great night outs. hehe).

Tuesday

My birthday!!! When I woke up, I felt really sad actually. I realized I had turned 25 already and I have not accomplished anything really. I have not had my great romance, not met my one great love, not written the best novel, had not gone on to my greatest adventure. It was kind of a depressing feeling and not something I would like waking up to everyday. But I realized that I was looking at things from a half-empty-glass perspective.
I may not have had my grand passionate romance, but I have been blessed with great friends who accept me with all my faults and eccentricities. I may not have written the best novels but I have resources to buy the best ones and learn and revel in their stories. I may not have hied off to the sunset with well laid plans of a crazy adventure, but everyday working in a different country makes me feel I am experiencing something new everyday. So for this birthday, I am thankful for what I have now, for what will be given to me in the future and what has been dealt to me in the past.

Len gave me a bouquet of flowers. Elle too. Happy ako...kaya lng bakit walang lalaki nagbigay ng bulaklak? hahahaha. My teammates also greeted me Happy Birthday in the office (while I was seriously engrossed doing an issue). So I had ice cream cake in the afternoon. I had dinner at Crepes and Co with my Filipino colleagues.

We had crepe (lots of it!) and ice cream. Then they sang happy birthday to me again with candles on top of ice cream. And Reys and the others gave me the Legends trilogy book. yehey! So I guess I would be cooped up again in the house for most of the time. hehe. So all in all, my birthday was pretty fun although I was really tired and sleepy.

Wednesday

This day was Mike's first trip to Spring and Summer! Soft and large bean bag pillows under the night sky and chocolate cake and other pastries and lots of tsika to dish around. I was trying to actually study for the training the next day but it was quite hard to concentrate. :P When I got home, I tried to rehearse but with all the tension knotting in my stomach, it was impossible. So I played tekken instead. :P

Thursday

My first training day! I finally met some of the Level 1 users I have only dealt with in the IMS or talked to on the phone. To be honest, while I was discussing the first parts of the presentation, I wasn't even nervous. I only got some little problem when one of the participants suddenly raised a question about printing set up issues. hello! di ako basis. wala akong alam dyan. hehehe. But I was stumbling through already when my boss came in to lend a hand. I was so self conscious already that I inadvertently let him do most of the talking. In the afternoon, I continued on, alone, so it was pretty much smooth and we finished the training pretty early. The downside about training is that I had to go back and finish up on the issues piling up on my plate while I was gone the whole day. Which basically meant I went home already at around midnight. :(

Friday

This was a pretty good day. I finished the training and got good evals as instructor. (Oh well, if they didn't understand a word I was saying at least I was able to charm them into giving me good evals. hahaha).
Then during the evening, the grandmasters treated us to pre Valentine's Karaoke at Fortune. It served also as Paui's farewell party before he left for South Africa.

Saturday

Sat night, Mike, Shirley, Reysiel and I had bonding session over coffee till 3am. We talked about past loves, about tagalog movies and profound lines found in those movies. All in all, it was a pretty enjoyable night and it was nice being able to get to know Shirley and Mike as we've never had the chance to talk that much in Accenture before. The coffee place we were in is one of the few places in Bangkok still open after curfew. Madami lamok, pero madami din naman kaming napagtsismisan (este, napag usapan pala) so ok lng. :)

Sunday

Trabaho na naman ako. :P
I am feeling a bit down and sad today...and my stomach is gearing for ultra hyperacidity mode. :(

To Reysiel, Mervin, Paui, JCo, Shirley, Mike, Vicky - thanks for making my birthday week a really great one in Bangkok. :)